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Bipolar and creativity.

I suffer with bipolar disorder and yet I hate and love the illness.

Strangely enough I have created some of my best works in my 'epsisodes'. In fact when I'm okish I have no motivation but when depressed or manic the ideas flow.

Does anyone have any comments on this please?

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Permalink Reply by H M Bascom on February 21, 2008 at 2:44pm: When It Rains

I walk and hold your passionate hand
Momentarily forget my pain
You turn and smile…
I know I love you…when it rains!

You take me high you know
To places I’ve never been
The roof of the universe
I can assure you I’ve seen

I don’t need to see
Sun and stars and ‘heavenly’ goods
Just your exquisite visage
Watching like I should

I look at your face
Closer than I’ve been to anyone
I’m lost for a million years
Yet one blink and you are gone

We kiss in the dark of night
Passionate senses…I feel your hand
Your kiss like perfumed marshmallow
Senses gone…I don’t understand

Three in the morning
And I watch your sleeping face
Beautiful love made
With the greatest of grace

We wake and hold and kiss
For both there is no pain
We turn and smile…
And love each other…when it rains!

Nigel Goodwin June 07; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by H M Bascom on February 21, 2008 at 2:46pm: There is energy in your work. At first glance it appears manic. But upon closer consideration, there is purpose there as well.; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by Nigel Goodwin on February 21, 2008 at 3:00pm: well thanks very much

you are very kind

i try to express my life through my work

thanks again helen

you must show me some of your work; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by Hilary Dougill on February 22, 2008 at 3:48am: Some of the greatest artists of our time have suffered from bipolar. Many of them on the stage and screen, which must have been difficult at times for them, but they succeeded, bipolar and creativity seem to go together, Perhaps it is the brain's overload of creativity which causes the episodes., hence you create your best work during an episode.; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by Nigel Goodwin on February 22, 2008 at 6:05am: thanks

you are right

maybe i should count it as a blessing !!; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by Hilary Dougill on February 22, 2008 at 6:20am: Well it certainly is not a curse if it makes you as creative as you are. It really can be counted as a 'gift', make the most of it. blessings; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by Nigel Goodwin on February 22, 2008 at 6:33am: thank you

i love having my gifts its just when im in a depressive episode I upset family and friends, get drunk and abusive and hate myself more and then recluse like now.

Anyway, thanks again.; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by Hilary Dougill on February 22, 2008 at 6:46am: We are only able to change ourselves, we cannot change others, and they cannot change us. You can change You. Make sure next time you become depressed you do not drink, that way you will not be abusive and alienate those who love you. This will certainly be a lesson in self control. Give it a try, you might be pleasantly surprised. blessings Hilary; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by Nigel Goodwin on February 22, 2008 at 6:51am: Actually I'm in the process of doing that now. I realised it was time to change. People giving me too much advice it was doing my head in!!!!

So, I've locked myself away and had a good think. I have stopped drinking, have took a liquid 2 day detox course just finished today. Have bought some slimfast drink to get some of my weight off and complan drinks for nutrients.

I am determined to get healthier. It's made me feel a bit weird at times but thats okay.

I don't even fancy a drink!!!!!!!

I feel this is VERY positive for me and others.

Thanks for listening.

I totally agree with you...the answers are within.

Be well.

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Permalink Reply by Hilary Dougill on February 22, 2008 at 7:01am: You too Nigel. God Bless; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by Nigel Goodwin on February 22, 2008 at 7:15am: no offence but dont bring god into it

its a long story

when i used to pray things got worse so now i dont!

nigel artist; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by H M Bascom on February 28, 2008 at 2:49am: I know what you mean Nigel. But no one means any harm by saying "God Bless You" or anything similar. We are all here to support each other, and we are here for you!